im writing this directly into the neocities code editor instead of what i usually do by writing my blog in notion first. this is gonna be another one of those, off the dome not spell checked not grammar checked dont show this to yo english teacher just a whole bunch of talk and mostly complaining.
dude i swear im thinking about the site, i have a whole drafted blog post on my notion that i wrote on the 28th of november which was recounting everything that i did in november, it was a really eventful month i have to say but its just not moving out of my drafts :/ the blog post is way too long for my current blog layout but i havent thought of anything im happy with sticking with to change it to so its just gonna stay vaulted until i figure that out.
i still do wanna do that site design overhaul but everytime i think of something i take a bajillion steps back because theres some little loser making some fake rules im supposed to follow about how to make a website look good... ITS ME IM THE LITTLE LOSER!! why do we as humans always make these fake rules... is it to feel.... HUMAN??? people put literally anything on their sites, i saw someone do a sick horizontal scroll timeline thats flippin sick! there are no rules!!! just make eveything functional!!! i know that!!! thats logical!!! but then i try to say update my landing page and my mind goes "you know most people have a button wall here or a cute graphic, you should probably do that, wow every thing you make in css looks ugly" SHUT UP BRRUHHHHhHH OHHH MY GODDDDDD. there is no like secret critic watching my every move at all times, no ones gonna drop a message in my guest book going "wow this isnt up to website code" actually i lied there is a critic, it is me. im not looking for sympathy or people goin "no it looks fine" I KNOW IT LOOKS FINE, iT LOOKS GREAT ITS MY TASTE EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN TASTE, i just wanna like yell about this into the void with the knowledge someones seeing it.
anyway, im doing okaayyy. i just recovered from a cold so i can move without feeling like a slug. im going on holiday soon which is fun im going to go see a friend. ive been playing a lot of modded minecraft with friends (which i think is finished progress wise by now?) i bought my first transformers toy, its the starscream 19cm advance model kit by yolopark, he is very cool and he watches over my dvds, i watched tadc episode 7 the other day that was nuts, how are we feeling jax nation?? i just got undertale so im excited to finally play it, i watched stuff about it like all the time as a kid, i remember specfically watching dan and phil play and now im an adult and playing myself!!!
this is just a place holder update so i feel less guilty about the "site updated: 1 month ago" notice that shoots me 47 times whenever i open neocities. once i get my shit together this will be removed and lost to time but until then, this is what im up to, im fine everything is chill im living it up in bright sunny weather (it is rainy and humid help me) anyway byeyeyeeee have a good rest of your day night girl i dont care whatever just go have fun, feel the rain on your skin OMG IAN SHUT UP
ive currently blocked myself from working on the site because i started making a repeating background and i cant continue coding my new about page until i finish this thing... lol! who knows maybe ill work on something else